Tuesday, January 25, 2011

To become a better person takes conscious effort, time, and sacrifice. Do I really want to become a better person knowing that?

How inconvenient would it be to bear tackle one of these challenges for one week, and then move on to the next? To ride city transportation? Well then would Scooby Doo drop off YumYum at day care? Inconvenient. Volunteer? Great on paper, but who has time? Introspect? My type of introspect is wondering to myself if the clothes and undergarments I’m wearing are clean. Invest money? What money? Strive for balance? Who isn’t?

This was my first response to this above article. Yes, I realize it’s pessimistic and by no means is uplifting. So to prove myself wrong, and to change my life, one step at a time (is that even possible) I want to tackle one of these. The most convenient- but not, is the reducing of my ecological footprint. Scooby Doo and I have considered going down to one car, but that would mean getting up probably an hour earlier each day, just so I could drive him to work (he needs to be there earlier than I do). Inconvenient. What happens if I have a meeting, or he does? Or I forgot lunch and want to drive home? Walk home? What? Walk the one mile home? Seriously?

I know.  I need a reality check. It’s been too long since I went down to Mexico on a missions trip. It’s been too long since I’ve NEEDED something and not been able to have it. It’s been too long since I saw a homeless person. It’s been too long since I went hungry; even remotely felt a twinge of hunger without having a feast.

What is with me? Is it so easy to get into this rut of contentment and routine, living your life the easiest way possible? To become a better person takes conscious effort, time, and sacrifice. Do I really want to become a better person knowing that?

Monday, January 24, 2011


She is truly our gift from God… 8 ½ months old this week J

Friday, January 14, 2011

Shi's blog

My friend started her own blog. I love it. I’m in love with it. It’s inspiring, motivating, and thought-provoking.

Take a peak.

Friday, January 7, 2011

No, I'm not pregnant.

In the last 72 hours, the following people have asked if I was pregnant:
  1. A guy at work. He saw my haircut and asked what made me want the change. I said well - 8 month old , pulling, eating hair- that’s their thing! He said… wait… you’re pregnant? I thought you were…. I said no, and explained that I have an 8-month old daughter.
  2. A female coworker – Out of blue, just asked me. (You think women would know better. And we're not even close!)
  3. Our female apartment manager. From across the parking lot. “Oh my gosh, I love your hair. Are you pregnant?” Seriously? I said no. She said oh it’s not that you look pregnant, just everyone always gets their hair cute short when they're pregnant.
  4. A family member, after I said I wasn’t feeling like eating dinner. This comment made the most logical sense out of all the prego-talk, and I can't blame him. I was super nauceous last time I was pregnant- and its not like me to turn down dinner.
  5. 2 of my girlfriends have had dreams where I was pregnant.
  6. A friend- talking about her desire to have kids in the future, said, wait- oh my gosh- are you pregnant?

Don't get me wrong all- I would be blessed to be pregnant! But Scooby Doo & I are taking several precautions to make sure that doesn't happen- unless God does one of his "God things". We want to cherish that time with YumYum and hopefully buy a house, and allow her to have all of our attention for at least the next 2 years, maybe 3. God’s timing is perfect. And yes- I want a big family with lots of kids, and this is a huge part of my heart. But I am not pregnant. Yes, I am overweight. But make note- even if a women looks 9 months pregnant with triplets- you just don’t say anything! So. That’s been the recent “vent” in my life. And just to clarify- it’s not that I’m offended at all. But by writing it down, I’m able to find and enjoy the humor in the situation, as I hope you are as well.

Being pregnant is wonderful- but it was really hard for me. I was really sick, and Em was sick when she was born for awhile until we figured out everything. I pray that before we become pregnant again, God prepares our hearts and spirits for that journey. Becuase it is a journey- not a race, and its not quick or easy. Fun- yes. Exhausting- yes. Trying- yes. But God is faithful and I know when the timing is right in the Lord's eyes, he will bless us with another child.
Life has been good. Well, hard, but good. My grandpa passed away Christmas Eve. He had lived a good life, but I’m still sad. Why is that? He lived a great life, fought admirably in 2 of the wars- enlisted in 3, and has increasing memory loss in recent years. He was a believer, a great father, and I had many fond memories with him. I guess I’m sad because I miss him. I’m sad that my daughter never met him. I’m sad.
New Years we went over to a friend’s house, and yes, friends, I did stay up till midnight. Actually past midnight! You know it’s the generation of technology and gadgets when you just decide it’s new years by playing a pre-recorded youtube video of the ball dropping in Times Square. Happy New Year! And yes- I got to kiss my sweetheart. :) Then I went and kissed my sleeping baby and wished her a Happy New Year. It was a great Year. Full of lots of firsts, tears, laughter, and growth- lots and lots of growth. That’s healthy though. The Bible talks about pruning, and that was my year in 2009. 2010 was about new growth. And I loved it. It was less painful, and it  was very refreshing to see, and have others see, that new growth in my life – with a new perspective, a healthy attitude, fresh hair cut, and growing family (with YumYum, again, I'm not pregnant)- there definitely has been a lot of growth.

Oh yeah- so I cut my hair. I was wanting the inevitable “change” that women often go through with the changing of seasons or perhaps to spice up a life with too much routine. I got it cut in an A-line, and it was cute.  I was excited to go home and style it, but despite showering in the morning, blow drying with a round curl brush, and even using a curling iron for the back, it was flatter than a pancake within an hour. So my hair was NOT digging the do. So I went back a day or two later to the same stylist after I talked to Scooby Doo. I said babe, I like it I just want shorter. And I'm thinking about it getting it a lot shorter- what do you think. He grabbed the laptop and picked out a picture of Halle Berry- I loved it! I said, “really? You’re okay with it that short?” He said yes, I like it best either really long or really short, and I think that looks super cute, but it matters if you like it. I said “um- yeah!! I’ve always wanted to get my hair cute really short and especially now with YumYum- maintenance would be a breeze!”
Before: This was about as stylish as I got on most days...

After the A-Line and color!

Me & one of my tired baby girl on New Year's Eve

M & I!

Me & my hunny :)
But I was looking through some pictures- and I always change my hair! It grows pretty fast. I’ve decided my favorite look is when I was pregnant. I LOVED my hair then. But once I had YumYum, time to color, cut, and curl just didn’t happen… maybe some day.

Dark hair- I love you girl! Oh... your husbands OK too :)

My sis and I getting ready for kiyaking

Pregnant and loving it - and the hair.

Belly bumps :)

Here's YumYum! And up goes the ponytail...
On another note... I've got to track down the picture of the three of us pregnant, but here are some neat pictures of me & two of my girlfriends and their babes, and one picture of the daddies- because it's too cute:

Well that's all for now folks- I'll try not to wait so long to post next time. :)